Tuesday

i'm having trouble getting around to blogging everyday like i told myself i would.
the last few days have been crazy and so emotional.
shit has happened with joel that i feel i can't help anymore, i love him with pretty much everything i have and it tears my heart out when i can't make things better for him. I'm hoping next week will bring him a bit more happiness and my joel will come back again, not this joel i dont know.

also, tomorrow is my final hsc exam, i am SOOO keen for it all to be over, no idea!

i wish;

i wasnt to be able to express my happiness that i get from m relationship with joel, i want to tell my mum how happy i am and these feelings! but i cant.

I was bali already, attempting to get a tan and buying everyones cheap christmas presents

i was in my new apartment already, the next stage of my life, doing things for myself, i cannot wait!

i get these marks, other wise my plans, that are planned out to a T will be ruined, i need these marks.

other wise i am happy, i am happy with where i am and what is around me.

i wish i could make things all better for you, take away the bad and fix you :(