saturday

i read ninas bulletin and i decided i would copy.
although i am going to write things i currently dislike.

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waking up next to my lover tangled in each others arms, clean sheets, dark hair, white eye shadow, new makeup, cleanliness, my future, rock of love, americas next top model, warm nights, mixx cds, holding hands, my nigger buns, orange and mango, big kisses, being hopefull, having money, spending money, being lucky, winning on the pokies, being in love, having an amazing family, taking nothing for granded.

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red lights, scene kids, people who walk slow, low battery, motorolla chargers, being pasty, sweating, feeling bloated, arguments, loosing money.

rant

girls these days get some self respect, my god.
just broadcast everything via myspace, especially your body through myspace photos.
i love how in her myspace photos she has her bra straps tightened as short as they go so her boobs look massive and sit right under her chin, or how her myspace photos show off her swim wear/under wear collection. as well as editing photos, smoothing out your skin, making your hair redder and your eyes bluer.
or how that girl, your not even pretty in real life and your hair is rank as, go get an education, stop scabbing off centerlink and get off myspace, shit!
seriously, and i have decided i really don't like/have time for those people who are under 18, bar 3.
/rant


oh and i seen a scene kid yesterday, i didnt think they exsisted anymore.
obviously not.

friday

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Surely you can take some comfort
Knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

thursday

after spending a great day withg my boyfriend i am extremly happy once again, he bought me the cutest ivory budda<3 SO cute :)

today i started packing up my room, i went thru my memory box and ohh there are many things that bring back memories from adventures, school and past lovers, lol.

im halfay through painting, i have hardly touched my paints and it feels good to get back into it, i cant wait to be able to hang my art up around my house :)

am i jelous

or do i just hate females?

i am furious, apart from th handful of decent girls i know, whom are kind, classy and just have respect, i hate everyone.

one in particular, you have no respect at all, you don't say that kind of shit to people whom are in a relationship, you are just an ugly slut, and your voice is so bad.
i cannot wait till i get a hole of your mobile number my god, you make me fume.

Tuesday

i'm having trouble getting around to blogging everyday like i told myself i would.
the last few days have been crazy and so emotional.
shit has happened with joel that i feel i can't help anymore, i love him with pretty much everything i have and it tears my heart out when i can't make things better for him. I'm hoping next week will bring him a bit more happiness and my joel will come back again, not this joel i dont know.

also, tomorrow is my final hsc exam, i am SOOO keen for it all to be over, no idea!

i wish;

i wasnt to be able to express my happiness that i get from m relationship with joel, i want to tell my mum how happy i am and these feelings! but i cant.

I was bali already, attempting to get a tan and buying everyones cheap christmas presents

i was in my new apartment already, the next stage of my life, doing things for myself, i cannot wait!

i get these marks, other wise my plans, that are planned out to a T will be ruined, i need these marks.

other wise i am happy, i am happy with where i am and what is around me.

i wish i could make things all better for you, take away the bad and fix you :(

Sunday

i am still awaiting the other photo to be uploaded, oh god.
i should have worn a necklace!

friday

last night was extremly messy, but alot of fun.
well deserved fun in my opinion.
it was great to get away from newcastle and to go to hotdamn, without sneaking in.
soo much dancing and laughing, was great.

im really liking my new haircut haha, although my sister is constantly telling me i look like an 'ugly boy' im really happppy with it, i just dont know what colour i should go, stay black orrrr try go back to a reddish colour? HMMM

anywho, today i am happy, hungover, sore, loved but very happy.
so keen for sleep ins tommorrow morning, hopefully jessie and i will have our lunch date... we'll see x

thursday

i have this feeling back

wednesday

haircut x2

Tuesday

i never thought id say this, but im actually wishing i had something to do.
i remember just a month ago i was SO keen to finish school, and now that i am home everyday and ive pretty much finished my hsc i have nothing to do!
my sleeping pattern is so messed up, and although i am so chilled and relaxed im bored of doing nothing!

im excited to go out thirsday night, its a well earned night and i cannot wait :)

on another note.
i dont see what all the fuss is about you, your nothing special, your not 'prettier' than anyone else, everything you do/say honestly annoys me. people almost worship you for some unknown reason, like your life is going no where!
frustratedddddd!

And all we know is that we'll never know

We love the hearts but the hearts love us even more
Desperate and true, thinking of you
Borrowed and blue, sinking with you

Keep loving, keep breathing, keep living

Monday

i got my haircut.

sunday

ive never been an angry person, i remeber rhys used to tell me that i am too much of a friendly person and that i let people walk over me all the time, and that, i quote, was going to 'turn up to school with a shot gun and repeat the columbine masscre and kill everyone whoever walked over you'

but ive recently seen this angry side of me, i never get angry yet ive been in these rages where this anger builds up and i do things i would never imagine myself doing, and latley it has been happening alot, and its like it's not me, and i can't control the way i act. things build up and i just snap and loose it and i turn into a completly different person.

I dont like this, i dont like it at all.

friday

cowlicks suck