lost

i currently have so much going on at the moment, way to much.
i cant even re arrange my bedroom which is a 2 week thing for me, im hardly home these days.
im constantly going behind peoples backs, ive lost alot of trust from my parents, and im starting to feel like i wont have friends soon, all on my behalf.
i need more hours in the day. i need more time to organize shit, and i seriously cannot wait til this is all over.
ive forgotten those most important, and ive been slack - once again.
but if found someone who i can truley vent to, who knows what im talking about. i hate hiding things, but i feel as though i have no other way, how i feel right now is just so strange, and i have to keep it to myself. i wish i could just tell everyone and anyone what is happening, but i cant.

stuff following your mind when the only reason your doing it is because of what others say.